testing the water

well i have made it to my last summer as a college student and it begins the same way, work and more work. this summer feels different though - not only have i moved into a new house but i have moved in with my best friends. i said good-bye to someone recently which is something i don't like to do. i'm so proud of her though and so very lucky to call her my sister & friend.

i think my summer will bring about changes in my character, outlook and well-being as a 21 year old trying to understand whats next. i can usually see into the future with a general outline of what i want from life but now that i've learned i can't always get what i want, things are hazy now and it is refreshing & exciting all at the same time.

i used to think that life would be easy and the hardest decision i would have to make would be where to eat for lunch - boy was i wrong. i have become my mother and i'm not afraid to admit it because unlike some people i have a mom that a girl would die for. i love to care for others and think that my happiness should be second. so this summer i'm devoting myself to me and finding out what it means to be lauren.

this journey will be bumpy and i'm very prepared. so with helmet on and suntan lotion ready i am prepared to make the most of my summer vacation.